Welcome aboard Dick,
I feel for you about your situation. You have a disease and need to treat it as such. Start out making a Drs. appt and discuss your drinking habits. You will probably need medically supervised detox to get you started on the recovery trail. That is the 1st step. Then finding a good in or out patient rehab would be a good 2nd step to give you some tools to use to stay sober while you continue your recovery. You definitely need these 1st two steps to get you started if you are going to be serious about this. Best Wishes to you.