I'm sorry you are dealing with that. Do you have somewhere you can go, perhaps a friend's house? Or go for a run (I am assuming you run, given your name). Running helps me with so much.
Good for you to come here and vent. The chat room might be a good place too!
Totally rooting for you to get through this! Maybe DON'T drink just to spite your spouse who is telling you that's all your good for? Totally passive aggressive, I know, but sometimes I am motivated by doing what others think I can't/shouldn't be able to do.