Thanks everyone!
Actually made it out of the house today. Had a friend escort me to the grocery store, both because I'm still all brainfoggy and weak, but because I knew she wouldn't let me grab a beer. So strange how I still cast a moment's glance down that booze aisle - it's like a home away from home.
I ended up getting some great veggies, beans, barley and a very small piece of beef, but I gorged on a chicken salad sandwich with a slice of ham and Sriracha. Not exactly fitting my attempt to snub salt intake, but wowwww did my stomach need some quick bulky substance after 4 days of gnawing away at its own lining
Ruby is right, when I save the drinking money, I'll have a savings bubble to visit my mom. There are other reasons I've avoided it, but I think some sober clarity will help me cope with those.
I'm gonna keep coming back - I need to get into one of the daily support forums, or an accountability thing. For when I get cravings, I can have someplace I know to go.
Hope to hear from more of ya. Soon I'll be ready to pop into other forums and say hello more