Hi.
I think your feelings are held by the majority of new people in AA. I had them for a short time UNTIL I got involved and active like making coffee, setting up the hall, cleaning up afterwards, even washing those smelly metal ash trays, going on commitments, speaking at meetings about your feelings and on and on.
Problems like this can be handled with the help of a sponsor, if we have/use one.
Try to remember “it works if we WORK IT.”
WE WELL