Please close this thread admins I'm done posting here.
If all people want to do is point out faults I am trying to deal with its not worth me being here. I know I make excuses but withou them I doubt I could start again.
I admitted I'm lonely and struggling and all you lot did was point out that I make too many excuses, need to change my life or write messages the covering it all but don't have the balls to leave them there. I'm not the type of person who shares usually and this site helped I have been honest from day one NOT A SINGLE LIE WHEN I LAPSE MAYBE I SHOULD HAVE ACTED LIKE ITS ALL GOOD AND I HAVNT DRUNK OR SNIFFED A DROP THIS WEEKEND.
NYmets and kkris cheers for your help since I have been here you have followed with the messages and I appreciate it.
i need some time away from here, obviously lapsing too many times isn't what anyone wants round here.
Ciao