Originally Posted by
RobbyRobot 
Perhaps you can't see it, but when you said you've done everything and whatever, and you still don't know how to turn your thoughts around, well, you've boxed yourself into a corner.
You know, you've been here before in your recovery, with that same want to love the drink. Eventually, you did pick up that drink. Not to be harsh, but isn't it time to change what you're thinking about? You can't change and focus your thoughts?? Sure you can. Keep making the effort and get it done.
Just sayin
Totally right Robby, basically I need to pull my head out my ass
Feeling better today, had a talk with my better half about how certain things trigger me and are maybe best avoided for the time being, she was good about it and told me to do what I gotta do to not go backwards.