Originally Posted by
MarathonMan 
Hey Dee, I know what you meant my reply sounded a bit off when i re-read it but it wasn't meant like that. More what I meant is I'm doing every single thing I can think of and can't think of anything else I could do and if I could think of something not sure I'd have the time or the energy.
If my itch has got a name it's the "I wish it could be different" itch. That's why in my first post I mentioned that I know I'm romanticizing but don't know how to turn my thoughts around.
Perhaps you can't see it, but when you said you've done everything and whatever, and you still don't know how to turn your thoughts around, well, you've boxed yourself into a corner.
You know, you've been here before in your recovery, with that same want to love the drink. Eventually, you did pick up that drink. Not to be harsh, but isn't it time to change what you're thinking about? You can't change and focus your thoughts?? Sure you can. Keep making the effort and get it done.
Just sayin