I've faltered twice in the 10 months since signing on to SR, King. It fills my shame bucket very nicely, thank you. I believe I use shame as an excuse to "be bad"?! Is that not crazy?
At any rate, I've learned more about myself while sober since June of last year than I have learned in the, oh, last thirty years of drinking. Just get back to sobriety, King, and leave the shame in the bottle.