Originally Posted by
LexieCat 
Wrong--that self-confident young person is still in there--yes, you took a couple of hard hits in the relationship department. But you can recover from this. I've done a lot of things I'm not proud of for the sake of pleasing someone who didn't deserve it. I own that. I did it. But I don't feel worthless because of it. I did at first, but I got past that. I know more now. I'm wiser. You are, too.
Thank you for this, I just feel like I am all over the place today because I really miss who I was those days, I really do miss myself, I guess I miss myself more than I miss him or who I thought he was.
I kinda wanted to make it work just to see if I could recover those two people? It sounds weird I know,... But I wasn't going to get back who he was because he never was that way.
I'll be able to be myself again and be proud of it, it will take a lot of time, honesty, discipline and effort, but I know I definitely want it to happen.