Originally Posted by
ItsJustMe89 
I am disappointed in myself for throwing away the sober time I had accumulated. Tomorrow should have been 3 months and instead it is going to be day 1. And instead of being on step 3 and getting ready to start step 4, I am going to go back to step 1.
Step 3 in 90 days? If you return to AA, talk to your sponsor about working through the steps quicker. And apply yourself to working the steps. As long as you drag your feet, you are going to long for alcohol, and mourn for the drinking you are "missing out" on. It isn't social drinking you are missing out on. It's fulfilling your maximum potential as a fully sober person that you are missing out on.