Originally Posted by
paulokes 
Paddy, if you were to end it all you would never get to see the Irish beat the English in the six nations again
Seriously my friend, I hear you. There have been times in the last 6 years when I felt hopeless SOBER , let alone in my drinking days. Mostly when drunk I would think of ending things but really just wished I wouldn't wake up.
Through all this I have learnt that feeling hopeless is a passing thing...it's a Final solution to a very temporary problem. Oh, and alcohol is a depressant. Never mind the things we do and the way we live, drink-fuelled depression is just a chemical reaction no matter how real it feels. Remove the booze and things feel different.
Contact the samaritans, or perhaps some old AA friends if you have attended before. Or go to A&E...Without a knife.
Good luck and god speed
P
thank you paulokes but the craving is powerful this time, I just need to shut my mind off for a bit of peace if you know what i mean..All unwanted fears which i managed to keep in the moment are now battering my mind. My Docs appointment is at 4.30pm Irish time and I am now embarrassed that i will be tipsey seeing him and he might tell me to come back another day... Don't think i can do another day... I know benzoes are more harmful than alcohol but at least i don't want to take on the world after them.... I've already caused havoc with those who love me and the consequences are building up slowly but surely... Just need to get this off my chest... Sorry for bothering u all...