It seems hard to get back here
Just before I went to a 10 day meditation retreat last month, I drank again. Not a lot, but enough. I think I was scared. Then, the retreat. No intoxicants of any kind, no killing, no talking (which makes "no lying" pretty easy), no meat, no reading, no writing. I came back to my world different. Felt weird, almost too "good". In fact, it was awesome. So, I drank. WHO DOES THAT FOR PETES SAKE?? Who doesn't drink and gets their life together for over 200 days, attends a life changing silent meditation retreat and then caves to a stupid bunch of fermented grapes?????
I guess I do. I'm back to SR and no alcohol. But, I've been reading and feeling like I've flunked out and have nothing to offer. Tonight, I realized I need to claim my rightful place and start posting again. Hello, fine friends.