Today was the hardest day yet...by far. I am way too upset and emotional to write about it now. OK, I will try...
Dad basically told us goodbye. He summoned up all of his energy, and gave my sisters and I a long farewell discussion about money, and where we are, and our futures. In all honesty, it nearly killed me. Because of course I am the one who he has grave worries about...far out. I can't do this... I thought I could, but I can't talk any more now. I am as sad and devastated as I believe is humanly possible. I want to run....I won't. But I would if I could.
He doesn't want to be alone at all; he finally asked us to be there with him at all times. We can't sleep there. So every other hour is for him now. I will be going back first thing in the morning.
Oh crap, this isn't coming out right...and I am way too upset to edit.