Damascus, when i got off of methadone i did have a sponsor and she was awesome! I went to meetings but i had to introduce myself as an alcoholic and that really bothered me because i don't drink. But that's what i had to do to be at certain meetings. I live in a small town. My anonymity was compromised twice in my work place and that has left me jaded this time around. I have a few resources but I'm more on my own this time. I do have some numbers that i could call if need be. Plus, i have this site and you guys! =) I feel better after being honest with my husband too.