Congrats on 45 days. I experienced a period of down in the dumps. It fluctuated between 3 and 9 months. Just know that it may come and go but it gets better with time. Also, don't expect life to be all peachy just because we are sober. Life has it's ups and downs whether we drink or not. It's being able to handle life's challenges while being sober is what I am hoping to achieve. No more hiding behind the bottle like I did for too many years to mention.