For me my mind would try to sell me this fairytale too, and I would keep believing it, the never ending merry-go-round would continue many times before I finally drew a line in the sand.
I think this is the real addiction side of alcohol, no matter how crazy something sounds we buy it hook line and sinker, people even drink themselves to death despite knowing the dangers, it's madness, but the dark reality of alcohol addiction.
Keep pushing through Grace, use the support here when you need to!!