Took me a while to know I wanted to be Sober and actually achieve it, I'd know what was going to bring me less misery but just couldn't make it happen.
At the start I had to force myself into Sobriety, cling on to I know this is a better choice even though I still wanted to drink, and as time went on I became more and more comfortable in my new lifestyle.
Time was a great healer for me!!