I have to say I've been stronger than I though I could be these last few days. I haven't given in one bit, but today was rather frustrating. I told my Mother that I would go out shopping with her today to find new shoes. That involves taking my toddler along with me. Well after making U-Turn after U-Turn after U-Turn we finally made it to the walking mall. To make a very long frustrating story short 4 hours and a dozen toddler temper tantrums later we were finally done. By this time my daughter was completely spent and we had no energy to do anything I had suggested we do that day. I came home very tired and irritated and wanted nothing more than to go grab a bottle of wine and forget the day ever happened. It came pretty dang close but that 24 Hour promise I made last night about 9:30PM kept coming to mind. I didn't promise them I promised MYSELF that I wouldn't drink. So I decided right then at 5:15pm that if I was still as angry and fed up that at 9:31PM I'd go out and get my wine.
You know what happen? My husband came home we ate dinner and spent the rest of the night in bed giggling with my never cuter toddler. We had a pillow fight, we ate pudding and we laughed. Before I knew it, It was 10:30 and well past her bed time.
I'm not telling my story for "congratulations." I'm putting it out there because all to often we as alcoholics live in the moment, that moment right then and there and we can't see past it. The joy and happiness I had tonight could never compete with the feeling I have at the end of a bottle. I know every night will not end this way, but tonight did.
Stay Strong SR Members, there really is a pot of gold on the other side of the rainbow.
