Originally Posted by tizzkins

Hi all i am just wondering how many times i can keep bouncing backward and forward from this site. This group is fantastic and very supportive so why cant i give up drinking i know i am slowly killing myself and i feel i need to be more honest. So here goes my husband knows about my drinking but the rest of my family dont parents etc. The thing is i went 24 hours without a drink last week and it was really hard so what did i do instead of keeping on going forward i reached for the vodka bottle again. I am in a really bad state and the state of panic my mind goes through if i am running out of vodka is unbelievable. I just dont know what to do anymore and i know i dont deserve anyones support from here if i can only manage 24 hours i feel really pathetic.