For some reason today I happen to think that I remember my first drink, a beer at festival thingy when I was like fourteen, the "adults" must have thought it was fun to see a kid drink themselves silly because I was taken home later full blackout first time. I also remember my last, poured out a half a beer near the end of a quasi self calculated taper. It was very close to my join date.
I had vowed hundreds of times in between those two to get off the merry go round, but finally realized I could do it and mean it after reading about RR and AVRT, which I heard about from SR. I've had enough, a sufficit amount .