I guess I equate full blown alcoholic with not being able to go a day without a drink, hiding bottles everywhere so drink is always available.
I feel ashamed, no-one is making a big thing of it at home, but when they tell me about my behaviour when I've been drunk I want to crawl under a rock. I know I have a problem, I just can't stop at one drink, I have to throw it down my neck like it's going out of fashion. I'm thinking back now and all my adult life when I have been out drinking, it has always been until I have been comatose. In the past I have woken up in bed with strangers, woken up in hospital. I've known I've had a problem for a while but it's so easy to sweep under the carpet, people make light of getting drunk in our culture, but seeing my kids uncomfortable cos I've had a drink makes me want to cry. I'm sitting here shaking because this is the first time I have openly admitted to anyone else that I have a problem.
Thank you for the warm welcome
