Welcome to Calypso and Virginia....I can totally understand where you are Virginia.
I hit the self destruct button when my AH walked out on me and my children. I drank so much that I really hated myself and what I was doing to me and my children. With the help of SR though I am gradually sorting myself out. I have found keeping a journal really helpful as well. Sometimes I write heart warming phrases etc things which keep me going, sometimes just how I am feeling. I find it really helpful to look back at the journey I'm on and it propels me to keep going...
Day 14 today..2 weeks
Hope everyone has a good day...we can do this..