And then what?
Lose your temper and assault someone else, or do stupid things, our eat really crappy, or fall and hurt yourself, or...
And then tomorrow wake up with a second assault on your record, a hangover from hell, ashamed and full of guilt, with anxiety and feeling like $&@?...
And the worse part will be that everything will be the same. I would suggest you go back and read your posts from before and remember why you came here and the person that you want to be or go for a walk, take a shower.
This will pass and you can make it through.