Hello and welcome!
Calypso, today is a new day. So you have made mistakes in your past. One thing I guarantee is that there are people here at SR who have done less, and done much much more. If it is freeing to you to share, that's fine. There will be NO judgement. That is not what SR is about. We are here to support each other, not judge each other. If you just want to jump aboard and get support from this day forward, that is totally ok too.
The thing you need to hear right now, is that YOU ARE NOT ALONE! We will walk this with you. While my issues are not with drinking, I still have issues. Who doesn't! SR has been am amazing place of great support that has gotten me through some of my darkest days.
Please don't feel scared to come here, we support you!!!!
Welcome to SR!!!!