Hi neversurrender - welcome
I can definitely relate with my will power not being strong enough, because a good part of my will still wanted to get high and drunk.
Acceptance worked a lot better for me.
I accepted I could drink and use, or I could be the person I wanted to be...but not both.
Getting sober is hard no matter how you do it, but once you choose a side and find the right support, it gets a lot easier
Good to have you here.
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