Great to you today, RT and thanks a lot for sharing ! I can and I'm sure pretty much everyone here can empathize with how you're feeling. I know I have felt that way, many times. I'm just hoping and praying this time I've FINALLY smelt the coffee and woke up ! You'll get it when you get it -just try to keep the smoking to a minimum while you decide which way you want to go. You don't have to act like a total pothead just because you're still on the fence.