Spoke to my wife this morning and she has told me to come home, she's let me know in no uncertain terms she will be keeping a close eye on me and expects me to keep up with AA every day and any hint of drinking and I'm gone and she's contacting a solicitor. She said she believes I'm not a bad person just took a wrong turn somewhere so because of that deserved one more chance. Think I'll leave this thread on that note but it has been very useful for me over the last couple of weeks to vent my spleen. Thanks for reading my little soap opera.