Well yes. I know I am partly responsible for this monster in my life. I was young and in love without knowing the full details of what lurked in the shadows. I have left before and gone to my mom's house and 2 days later she begged and begged and begged me to come back. At that point I should've just stayed there but I cracked under the feelings that I felt for her even though I know she's cheated on me several times through drinking.
The most messed up thing about this whole situation is that when I was a kid my dad was an alcoholic and I swore I would never let myself be surrounded by those kinds of people again.
16 years of living with my drunken a-hole father beating on me, and 4 years after that I married one