rdy2change

Omg, lol. I basically only saw the first thing you wrote. For some reason that's all my brain was reading and I was so disheartened... But I saw the second part!


Thanks, guys! You all really seem so great! I am utterly so embarrassed by so many things in my past. And not many people if any know that I was still a drinker even after becoming a mom cause I was embarrassed by it. All the control it had on my life. It's great to read others stories and their successes. I felt "at home" reading posts all yesterday!

I definitely feel 110 percent ready to recover. I remember all the times in the past I messed up or drank to much I would think I coukdnt drink, then have such a strong desire, could not imagine giving it up. And although it has only been a few days I can definitely imagine a great sober life. Having the police escort me home now that I was a mother really shook me to the core. What a f*** up I was. I could have gotten arrested or had CPS come. And if I lost my daughter I would die. She is my everything. I am crying as I type this. But I know I can have fun without alcohol. Why did I think I needed it? I definitely will post a lot! I really need some good friends and support. Like everyone does!