Originally Posted by
Eliasson 
It's 10 pm. So not really. But thank you. I guess I just have to finally make up my mind that I am done with it all. I don't know why it is so hard.
It is hard...but you are correct in that you will need to accept/surrender/decide that drinking simply isn't an option anymore. Some of us need help that in the form of meetings or counseling, some of us need even more help in the form of detox or rehab. If you leave open the even the slightest option to drink, it's almost a certainty.