I tried
So I decided I would stop drinking May 1st. And I lasted until the 20th. I was just thinking that I was angry and bitter due to no alcohol, and i finally gave in this past friday. I thought it would help, what a silly lie to believe it didn't help. I was just more angry the bext day knowing i drank. then I still had some left so I drank again last night. It may sound like I don't want to stop but I really do, I guess this just proves to me that I can't do it by myself.