Dear all, thank you very much for your encouraging words. I have decided to stopped drinking. I haven't had a drink since that night which has been 3 days now. And I had gone to my first AA meeting yesterday. It was very inspiring listening to other people's story. I will be going for AA meeting again tomorrow.
It's just that this guilt that keep on creeping on me and that self hatred that I'm feeling right now. Feeling so depressed and ashamed for what I've done, not too sure if there is any underlying problem within me.Who are we when we're experiencing blackouts? Do we have any idea what were we doing? Is that the real us?