Welcome to SR alexddy -
Drinking causes us pain, yet we continue to pick up - such is the madness of the disease. It will continue to get worse, as you know.
You can choose to stop the madness today, tho, by not drinking. SR is a great resource and full of support. We have ALL had our own version.
Congrats on taking the first step of reaching out by posting. You should feel good about that - somtimes it isn't easy to take that first step
