Chickchick,
I hope you get on sr and read this thread in the morning and see how many of us really want you to be sober and happy.
I did something similar to you on my last relapse, I wrote in my journal how it felt to be drunk, how much I hated it.
Today is a brand new day. You will have time to rehydrate. Treat yourself kindly. Eat good food. You can make a plan, you can do this.