even though I know for a fact he never had sold it to anyone ever and strictly used personally in secret
you must let go of this myth that you THOUGHT you knew ANYTHING about him. he has just proven that there is so much more you never would have even considered.....he ordered HEROIN to be delivered to your HOME!! the DEA doesn't bust in on a whim....he's been on their radar for a while. he has put you and that dear child DIRECTLY in harms way....you were forced to the ground by agents.....you could have been taz'd or shot. meanwhile your poor baby is left defenseless.
he isn't deserving of sympathy at this point. IMHO. I suggest you get an attorney, pronto.