Hi Florentine. I totally relate to your story. I don't drank for 25 years and mostly if I was alone. I realized I was drinking because I wanted to escape my life. I've been sober now for 25 days and I have so much clarity. I am making my life how I want it and because I'm not drinking I don't feel guilty for what I want. The funny thing is my husband is liking the new me and responding to my new likes. As far as the 5 to 8 part, that's the hardest for me too, but it takes the edge off if I treat myself to some Welches light grape juice.