Originally Posted by
GerandTwine 
What sentences and feelings were going through your head during the five minutes up to the very moment you swallowed the first gulp of your last drinking episode?
After making your Big Plan, what actions need to be implemented towards it?
I'm not sure on the first part, but I would guess it was either seeking pleasure as a reward for hard work, or seeking pleasure as relief from stress.
There are only two actions to consider drink or don't drink. Don't drink is the action to choose - a non-action really.