I DO want to quit. By happenstance I actually haven't had a drink in 4 days. I recently had to get a second job. I've been working 16 hrs a day. (The fact that I am having to do this has a lot to do with some very poor decisions and associations made through the influence of drinking.) I am also living with the "roommates" because of these bad choices. The rent is free and no utilities to pay either. Back to the point, during these four days, I have noticed that aside from being tired, I feel a little different. Better. I want so badly to stay this way. I looked up the AA meetings available here and I am going to try my first one this week. I don't think I can handle this on my own.
Everyone here sounds so wonderful. All of you can expect to see me regularly.