Thank you. I am following your posts and rooting for you and your son.
I totally get how you feel. From your posts here, you are doing really well. I admire your strength.
I have good days and bad days. The thing is that my relative is young, and I am getting old. I just don't want to live this way for "x" amount of years - and I can't figure out how I got into this position - not that anyone ever knows why negative, unexpected stuff happens. It could be something else happening to me that I wouldn't like. I just selfishly want to have a happy, carefree old-age. I must have thought I "deserved" it - so this is a rather rude wake-up call that life is not geared up to please me 24/7.
Just not happy at the moment. Feel trapped by my own emotions and feel powerless over my emotions.
The whole thing is just unacceptable to me.