The longer you stay sober, the more clarity you'll get. You are seeing things that you were numbing with booze before and it is painful to process without the usual coping mechanism (alcohol).
Hang in there, you are building strength and support and when it is the right time to take action you will be able to make you move.
Right now things seem grey and hopeless but this is only the start of your sober journey. It will get better and we are here for you.
I know it hurts
