Hey, I'm not at great at giving advice, but you're on the right path if you have chosen to completely give up alcohol. Think of your wife, and your kids, and who would be there to care for them if something should happen to you. We all have to come to the realization that we're just not good drinkers, and that we do more self-harm than any good. I want to congratulate you on your 5 days, and say that there are only happier days ahead. I go on YouTube sometimes and watch motivational videos, there is one called 'Why Do We Fall,' and so many others. Maybe that might be helpful to you. This is my advice for now, and I'm sure someone on this great website will be glad to say more kind words. Keep it up.