Vic,
Each new day affords new opportunities, keep trying to do what is right for your children, today. We all make mistakes, it's not what we have done, it's how we handle it, now.
I too am a product of a horrible childhood, it is up to me to forgive and make a good life for myself and my loved ones. I work everyday to be a better person then my parents were.
I wish you peace & happiness,
Dolly