For a number of years I entertained the idea of being sober, but I wasn't ready or willing to get sober yet. I still wanted to be able to have what I thought was fun by drinking nor did I want to change. I felt I absolutely had to change this year since my drinking had been going on far too long than I was comfortable with. Taking that first step can be the hardest, but you can do it. It takes a lot of effort, but it is worth it. Finding this community helped me take that first step. Take advantage of what this community has to offer.