Originally Posted by
Karrets 
I'm having counselling and have started salsa dancing and joined the gym. I just feel like I'm pretending at life
This is where the saying 'Fake it until you make it' applies. Have faith that if you continue to work at recovery you will succeed, because it's true. Are you going to let this man define your life from now on?
When I went through a traumatic break up, I felt terrible for a long time, but there was a shred of pride there which made me determined not to define the rest of my life by it.