I liked to use drinking as a cure for loneliness. It took me a while to realize that drinking was the cause of my loneliness. The majority of my friends are non drinkers. People who don't drink get tired of hanging out with someone who is drunk.
When I'm not drinking, I'm more fun, creative, calm, and caring.
I understand the looking forward to drinking part. I really do. But it really helps to look at the overall impact drinking has on your life and judge if its worth it.
For me, it's not. I've lost too much and I am not willing to lose anymore for a buzz.