No matter what your kids need and deserve you. You ARE NOT worthless. I relapsed after my 9 months recently. Don't give up. You can get another two years. that is a big achievement. Relapse is part of the disease. If you weren't in danger of drinking you wouldn't be here, don't let one action define you. To make bad choices is human. I am proud of you that you came here and admitted it. I know about wallowing in our mistakes. Please make a gratitude list and see all you have to keep going and get back on track. With love JohnQPublic