You're not alone Cherra, I think I know exactly how you feel. I'm also too old for my job, suffering financially after the breakup of my 23 year marriage, and don't have any close friends or family on this side of the country.
It's hard, and at lonely, but it helps me to know that there are people out there who know what I'm going through, and care about me even if they've never met me.
(((((((( hugs ))))))))) to you my friend.