Hi cherra,
I am so sorry you are feeling this way today. You have been through a lot, and it wasn't that long of a time period yet.
I forget, did you get a divorce or are you in the process of it?
In a way I do know how you are feeling. You served 37 years, I only served 27 years. It's weird how everything seems so weird sometimes when you are use to the chaos.
How is your daughter doing, is she coming home for Easter vacation?
Do you just want to chat for awhile?
Just remember that it is less then a year. I think it happened in July last year. You have a lot of grieving to go through, and you will get to acceptance.
It took me a long time also. Just remember we are here for you.
(((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))
amy