Ugh, the worst part is that the list goes on and on...
Funny how long it's taken me to see it? Someone actually commented on something I said on a different thread recently about the cell phone thing, and how that's something that addicts do. That really hit a nerve. Like, REALLY shook me up. I've known I have problems drinking for a while, but an addict? Me?
It's kind of hard, reconciling the idea of addiction when I wasn't an every day drinker. Not even an every week drinker! But I AM an addict, as soon as it hits my lips, I can't stop. And if I do stop, I'm not happy about it. So I need to not start. It has so far proven to be the ONLY way to control my addiction.
Whoever said the thing that helped me look at my problem in a different light, thank you. It hurt to hear, it hurt to think, but it is a good kind of hurt. A truthful kind.