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Old 04-01-2015, 12:46 PM
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I do things that addicts do

Sneak drinks when others aren't looking.

Drink before drinking events.

Drink before non-drinking events.

Try to get others to drink as much as I am.

Underplay how much I drank.

Stay sick in bed for a day, wishing I had two days to recover.

Ignore my phone for days after drinking, afraid to see what's on there.

Avoid people I may have been drunk around for days, weeks, months because I'm so ashamed that I don't remember what I said or did with them.

Tell myself I'll never do it again... and then do it again.

Try to tell myself I don't have a problem...

Hate myself.

I have a problem. No matter what I tell myself, no matter what my friends or family would tell me, I do. That's why I'm here today. Day 16.
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Old 04-01-2015, 12:51 PM
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What a coincidence - I do those things too. All that and more. Congrats on your 16 hard-earned days KT. PA people are tough - you're doing this thing.
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Hmm, I've done all of those things too.

Good for you on Day 16.
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Old 04-01-2015, 12:55 PM
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Sounds familiar
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Old 04-01-2015, 01:21 PM
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Congrats on day 16
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Old 04-01-2015, 01:30 PM
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PS, I guess I should have phrased this, I DID things that addicts do hopefully, I won't do those things again!
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Old 04-01-2015, 01:32 PM
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Of course you won't KT.
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so true. wow.
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Old 04-01-2015, 01:53 PM
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Ack! Are you a mind reader? How did you know all that?
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DITTO on all of the above.... Way to go KT 16 days...keep adding up those 24's.
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Old 04-01-2015, 02:06 PM
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Ugh, the worst part is that the list goes on and on...

Funny how long it's taken me to see it? Someone actually commented on something I said on a different thread recently about the cell phone thing, and how that's something that addicts do. That really hit a nerve. Like, REALLY shook me up. I've known I have problems drinking for a while, but an addict? Me?

It's kind of hard, reconciling the idea of addiction when I wasn't an every day drinker. Not even an every week drinker! But I AM an addict, as soon as it hits my lips, I can't stop. And if I do stop, I'm not happy about it. So I need to not start. It has so far proven to be the ONLY way to control my addiction.

Whoever said the thing that helped me look at my problem in a different light, thank you. It hurt to hear, it hurt to think, but it is a good kind of hurt. A truthful kind.
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Old 04-01-2015, 02:50 PM
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I relate to everything you listed. I dread looking at my phone after a night of drinking. I become a total a-hole when I drink and tend to send out texts and make calls that I regret the next day. when soBer, I hardly bother at all with my phone/social media
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Old 04-01-2015, 02:52 PM
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Congrats on Day 16.
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I can relate to every single thing you posted. Isn't it amazing to know you will never feel that way again.
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Old 04-01-2015, 03:12 PM
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A good post! Yip, I recognise all of it (maybe except the phone thing). Amazing, that we all tried to hide these 'traits' - through i guess shame or embarrassment? ...and here we all are - together 'out in the open' agreeing we see ourselves in the list...
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Old 04-01-2015, 03:52 PM
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me too !!!! congrats on 16 days
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Old 04-01-2015, 04:09 PM
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Congrats on 16 hard earned days my fellow Pennsylvanian!
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Old 04-01-2015, 04:41 PM
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Congrats on day 16! Nice post as well, and I can definitely relate. Hell, I moved to the other side of the world to avoid life, so I could sit around and drink every day instead.
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